I've been reading crap I shouldn't read. I shouldn't read it because it clouds my head with bad writing but I miss reading so bad reading is what happens. I can't read books when I'm writing. I can't hear my own voice well enough when I'm listening to someone else's.
I read this article I won't cite here
because it's not worth you reading it really either. It's a nice idea, I guess.
It's a set of photos of moms sitting next to each other. The photos each contain
two women each holding a sign that says what two divergent choices they've made
as moms. "I had a scheduled c-section. I had a planned homebirth."
idea, of course, being that two women who have made very different choices can
find common ground and be friends. And the reason I take offense is NO FUCKING
DUH. Of course two women can make different choices and still be friends. We're
grown ASS WOMEN.
Don't insult us like that.
The premise is this
mamby pamby bullshit I don't like that implies that because women disagree,
sometimes vehemently about these choices, that they're being sophomoric. That
disagreements among women are to be taken down to a level where we're being
adolescent girls fighting over boyfriends instead of adults making profoundly
meaningful decisions with vast impacts on an entire generation of children. To
degrade our disagreements on decisions like whether to breastfeed or not and
what method of discipline to use, is to degrade our next generation.
decisions we make as parents are far-reaching and meaningful. They are not
benign or arbitrary.
If you choose to feed your child fastfood vs.
organic home cooked meals, let's not call those two equal decisions.
not saying you can't value a friend or that a mom is a horrible person for
making a decision that was in the moment, the best decision she could make. I'm
not saying we should fail to support one another and henpeck her to death. But
let's neither pretend that the two decisions were equally valueable. One
decision was harder.
I cloth diaper my kids. I don't like rinsing shit
in the toilet. Not at all. I don't want a totem pole of martyrdom rectified in
my honor for it or anything. But when you say, "that must be hard." It is. And I
should be doing more. I should be taking the bus more. You should too. We should
be preparing our stories for our children of why we made the choices we did. I
want to be able to say, "I tried. I bought things used and recycled and used
cloth instead of depositing piles of shit in a landfill."
be holding hands and pretending like none of it matters. Neither should we be
scrapping over who does what best. We SHOULD be pushing each other to be better.
Not every choice leads to the best outcome. Is it really so bad to have to
justify the choices you made? Because certainly not all of mine have been good.
But I should be able to be proud of the ones I made that were hard-wrought and
good. And so should you. And when you made better choices than I did, I hope it
made us all better.